Bulwark
- A.M. Gonzalez
- 7 days ago
- 2 min read
Bulwark
A castellan cries behind his bulwark
In the dark, mollycoddling his heart
Partition between himself and them
They cannot leave if he first departs
He is yet to realize that his iron grip
On his own heart is tearing it apart;
Though, not solely his - other souls
Also feel the pain of his withdrawal
His friends peer into the portcullis
Their hands rattling the metal bars
Pleading he emerge from his fortress
Yet over his sobs, theirs are inaudible
Fire with Fire
Guarding my heart is in theory
Building me up; I'm an artisan
Is my self-defense not self-love?
In ways it is, but the line is thin
Between caution and cosseting;
Leaving first can avert desertion,
Yet in turn deserts & hurts them
They did not deserve to burst in
Flames when you fought a non-
Existent fire with gas & burners
Repose for the Camera
I cannot ensure I will not be hurt
What's to come, tough to predict
Yet my heart'll never be dormant
For death's door is still unbolted
In every form, love is a high risk
Soaring reward sort of situation
Too vast a fear of being pierced
By thorns wards off all the roses
I dread reposing on my death bed
Alone & watching reruns till dark
Drifting off to death yet inviting it
Without anyone to stay alive for, so
I'll always love the world as I should
I'll always love the world like I want
I don't want to be isolated and aging
And regret not loving freely all along
Woolgathering
She sees a seat and points a finger
A gray spray-painted cedar bench
Below the shadow of a willow tree,
We rest our feet on a shaded half
What a lovely day we've had!
I expand my hand fan and flick it
We people-watch and eat our lunch
Hydrate our tongues in rum punch
After this we'll visit the fish exhibits
What a lovely day's ahead!
A group of mid-age friends pass by
My friend sets her sandwich down
I glance at her, I ask, "No appetite?"
She looks at me, her mouth a frown
"Promise me to never leave?"
And here I thought it was only me
Pretending to enjoy the lovely day
Over the worry I'm not savoring it
Just in case it won't happen again
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